I'm going to a party

[mama_porter]

The gentleman I'm seeing - or should I say dating? Can a woman my age date or is that just for young people? - has invited me to a party at the home of someone he works with. A lot of his co-workers are going to be there, too. He told me it's a dinner party with cocktails beforehand and I'm so nervous because I don't think I'm all that good at small talk. Usually we spend time here or he takes me to a restaurant and I feel so comfortable with him. I don't want his friends to think I'm stupid or anything and I don't want to embarrass him by saying something dumb. This is the first time in a long time that I've gone to a party where I literally only know one person. Why did I say yes?!

Comments

[will-porter.livejournal.com]

Mom, you're awesome. You're not stupid, you're not dumb, and you always charm people at parties. Just be yourself and you'll be fine.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

All right. I'll try.

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

You really shouldn't worry about it so much. Best thing you can possibly do when you go to a party is to just go with the flow and be yourself, like Will said.

When you worry too much about it then you just drive yourself crazy and you end up all tight and nervous.

So just go and have fun.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

What made you boys so smart?

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

I've spent way to much time at parties and military/diplomatic functions over the years.

I would have to assume that Will got it from you. ;)

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Ah, I see. You'd think I'd be better at this considering Tobias dragged me to his bank functions all the time. But I knew most of those people beforehand. I'll heed your advice and just relax and try to have a good time.

LOL Sometimes I'm not so sure. I used to be so much more shy and reserved when I was a young woman, but Will was chatty and curious about people before he could even form words! Maybe he rubbed off on me.

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

Maybe you just needed someone to show you the ropes. Besides, it sounds to me like it was a pretty even exchange. You gave him your smarts and he gave you his...exuberance.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

I like the sound of that! Though Tobias gave Will his smarts. But that's very sweet of you to say.

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

Well, I never knew him, so I'll stick with my first impressions and say it was you just the same.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Well, I appreciate that very much, honey. You are a charmer.

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

Heh. It's an old habit I can't quite seem to shake. It tends to get me in trouble on occasion.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Don't you ever shake it! But how in the world could it get you into trouble?

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

Some people take it the wrong way or I use it on people who I shouldn't use it on cause they take it the wrong way or, well, just various things like that.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Ah, okay, I can see how that could cause some trouble. But something tells me you don't mind some trouble now and then.

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

Who, me? I don't even know the meaning of the word.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Now why don't I believe you?

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

Like I said, you're a smart woman.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

And you are a gem.

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

*see icon for flustered look*

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

LOL Cute!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

All I got to say is we spent two days talking and you were how many miles away?

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

It's easy to talk to you, though!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

Because you mother me. Most people run when I talk to them.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

They don't know what they're missing. And the ones who should run deserve what they have coming to them.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

Most days I'm glad they all stay away.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Are you bothered a lot by people you don't want around? I mean at your home.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

I've always got to be on guard. If the wrong people follow me, find my house I could easily loose everything.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Snake, that's such a frightening thought.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

I know. I think about it all the time.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

I really wish there was something I could do. I hate the thought of you having to worry like that.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

It's the life I chose when I saw my parents killed. Lot of hard choices to make and the outcome's just as hard. It doesn't mean it's the wrong way to go.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

No, it's not wrong at all.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

I've excepted the worry and stress as part of life. The other option was not getting what I wanted while alive. Don't feel bad about it. I don't.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

All right, but feeling bad and worrying about people is just what I do.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

You should stop a bit. I'm old enough and better at taking care of myself than anyone else around here.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Honey, it has nothing to do with how capable a person is of taking care of themselves. I know you are. You're the most capable person I know, including Will. But it makes me feel better to be concerned about the welfare of people I'm close to, so when they're doing all right, I feel happy.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

We're doing fine. It's when I go quiet that you got to worry. Should be happy right now.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

I am. Very happy.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

Good.