I'm going to a party

[mama_porter]

The gentleman I'm seeing - or should I say dating? Can a woman my age date or is that just for young people? - has invited me to a party at the home of someone he works with. A lot of his co-workers are going to be there, too. He told me it's a dinner party with cocktails beforehand and I'm so nervous because I don't think I'm all that good at small talk. Usually we spend time here or he takes me to a restaurant and I feel so comfortable with him. I don't want his friends to think I'm stupid or anything and I don't want to embarrass him by saying something dumb. This is the first time in a long time that I've gone to a party where I literally only know one person. Why did I say yes?!

Comments

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Are you bothered a lot by people you don't want around? I mean at your home.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

I've always got to be on guard. If the wrong people follow me, find my house I could easily loose everything.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Snake, that's such a frightening thought.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

I know. I think about it all the time.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

I really wish there was something I could do. I hate the thought of you having to worry like that.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

It's the life I chose when I saw my parents killed. Lot of hard choices to make and the outcome's just as hard. It doesn't mean it's the wrong way to go.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

No, it's not wrong at all.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

I've excepted the worry and stress as part of life. The other option was not getting what I wanted while alive. Don't feel bad about it. I don't.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

All right, but feeling bad and worrying about people is just what I do.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

You should stop a bit. I'm old enough and better at taking care of myself than anyone else around here.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

Honey, it has nothing to do with how capable a person is of taking care of themselves. I know you are. You're the most capable person I know, including Will. But it makes me feel better to be concerned about the welfare of people I'm close to, so when they're doing all right, I feel happy.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

We're doing fine. It's when I go quiet that you got to worry. Should be happy right now.

[momma-p.livejournal.com]

I am. Very happy.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

Good.